Everyone has their own method of practice. In fact, every method is a tool to help cultivate the mind. Even if today you only hear a few words of Dharma, they can also be useful for you.
Relax your mind. Don’t think of past nor future. Just be in the moment and keep a clear and awakened mind.
Learning Buddha dharma is not to become a strange person. What is a true Buddhist? A true Buddhist disciple is a very kind and good person. One shall cultivate their mind with Buddha dharma and slowly eliminate the afflictions of arrogance, anger, etc.